"Enough"

Turn back the clock with me seven years ago. Having just completed my doctoral studies, sensing that it was time to make a move career-wise, and yet reasonably satisfied to continue living in my hometown near my loving and supportive family, I frequently listen to the Chris Tomlin song "Enough." Whether at church, on the radio, or on my playlist as I worked on my journal or class preparation, I would stop and try to sing along, only to realize that I couldn't genuinely repeat the words. I believed them to be true and desparately wanted to claim that truth personally, but often I felt as if I was trying to convince myself of the truth of the lyrics, not proclaim them. Over a period of months, I believe God worked to bring me to a point where I believe I could sing the words truthfully, before the circumstances of life changed to a point where I could see His provision so amazingly beyond my wildest dreams and expectations.

Now, back to December 2011. As the worship team at the Prairie Tabernacle congregation led this song on Sunday morning, I needed to stop singing and ask the Lord, do I really mean the words coming out of my mouth? What does that truth claim mean for me today with a wife, two children and another one due in January, a home, two part-time jobs, and a general sense of physical (and mental) fatigue in my body?

I have not yet come to an "answer," yet I will sing the words, affirming the truth the song conveys about God, His character, and His provision.